Amanda Murray


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Amanda is a TV that is a 51 year old Business owner who is married and lives in Oxfordshire. Only his wife knows that he dresses. She has helped him with make up etc in the past but is not really comfortable with the whole thing and it does affect their sex life, however she believes that he should do what he really wants and has no objections to his visits to the WayOut Club. 

What is your name and what is your background?

Amanda Murray (Mandy to my friends) I live in Oxfordshire and run my own business plus I am married .

Is your name an alter ego? femme name, why did you choose that name?

Quite simple, I chose the same name as Mandy Rice Davies of Christine Keeler / John Profumo fame. I think she was fab (as was Christine) I have a great respect for working girls and if I was a real girl I would probably be one.

How old are you and how young were you when you first thought about or actually cross-dressed?

Too old now, 51 !! and I first tried on some of my sisters clothes when I was 10 or 11

Where do you buy your clothes?

I have bought clothes from various places, dresses, tights etc from department stores (House of Frazer, Selfridges etc) Shoes need to come from specialists due to size (usually from places recommended in the Tranny Guide. Recently though I visited Doreen Fashions in London, (see listing in TG AtoZ directory), and bought some new shoes, two mini dresses and a new pair of boobs (all a girl could want under one roof, and they are very nice too!) .

What leads you to choose the styles you wear?

Well a few years ago I was complemented on a number of occasions at the Way Out Club on my legs. So, if you've got 'em flaunt 'em I say, so it's mini skirts and mini dresses all the time for me! I'm a bit of a tart I guess.

Do you have one look, or many images?

as above!.

Is make-up and hair important to you and if so how do you achieve your look?

Yes very. I have tried doing it myself but the professionals are better. I tried wigs at first but never really liked them and then, back in the 90's, I visited a dressing service in London called Girls Like Us, (no longer open). A very talented lady, Peroschka? (not sure about the spelling) told me that as my hair was fairly long she could do it in a feminine style. As far as I was concerned the results were just what I had been looking for but judge for your self as I have attached a photo. I am just about to visit The Boudoir dressing service, (see listing in TG AtoZ directory), for the first time prior to a visit to the Way Out Club, (see listing in TG AtoZ directory). I can't wait to see how they make me look. Make up wise, I leave it to the person doing it as she knows best but I insist on having red nail polish on my longish nails. (that's the tart again) .

To what degree do you practice hair removal, and other body feminisation?

For some years now I have had my legs, arms and a little bit of hair on my stomach waxed every month. I am lucky and do not have a hairy chest or hair on my back. Waxing is fine once you have had it done a few times (don't know what the fuss is about :-) and I have this done regularly whether I am going out or not. I REALLY do not like being hairy anymore and smooth legs are just devine! .

Who knows you dress?

Only my wife. She has helped with make up etc in the past but is not really comfortable with the whole thing and it does affect our sex life unfortunately, however she believes that I should do what I really want and has no objections to my visits to the Way Out Club, (www.thewayoutclub.com). . 

How often do you dress and if you go out where to?

Only when going to the club which, unhappily I have not been to for a couple of years. Still, I am about to put that right so Mandy is back on the scene!! .

So what is a man and what is a woman?

Tough question. Women are wonderful feminine divine creatures and men are, well men. And then there are the inbetweens!

What’s your definition of feminine?

Gentle, kind, sexy, dresses, stockings, legs, long hair, high heels, make up etc .

Where do you feel you fit on the transgender spectrum CD TV TS?

definitely TV! .

Are you happy to be called a Tranny?

Tranny is fine. I think that drag queen is something very different which I am not. Drag queens are what you see on stage at Madam JoJo's or people like Lilly Savage .

To what degree do you feel gender dysphoric?

Well I don't know by how much but I definitely have a very strong feminine side that seems to get stronger all the time. .

To what degree would you consider permanent hair removal, hormones, and surgery?

I have toyed with the idea of laser or the new light hair removal and would be happy to do it (I hate shaving) and would have no problems with permanently removing the hair from my legs, arms and face but I am a bit worried about any possible side effects. So I am still undecided .

What individual has inspired you most in relation to your TG inclinations?
No doubt about that, Vicky Lee! She is a star and has done so much for us TV's.

Do you feel that you have any choice in your TG thoughts and actions?

Well, if I did I wouldn't choose any differently so it doesn't make any difference. However, I believe that we are what we are and can only really be happy when we accept that.

Have you ever suffered harassment or abuse?

No, never . 

Have you tried to stop?

No never and don't want to.

Are your sexual preferences changed by your TG experiences (even temporarily)?

Now that's an interesting question. I have never thought of myself as gay or even Bi and am not attracted to men but when I am Mandy that seems to change. I am flattered when men compliment me at the club and am attracted to other TV's. This has led on to a couple of different experiences.  

Have you suffered illness, depression, relationship break ups because of being TG?

No, I have been lucky in that way.

If you could relive your life without the TG experience would you?

No, I believe that I would miss out on what is a unique experience in life, let me explain. The first time that I went out dressed was on an escorted trip to JoJo's with Caroline Eggerton. Towards the end of the evening I needed to leave as I had a long drive home but Caroline wanted to stay. We had come to the club together in my car but she was happy to take a cab. I thanked her and said goodnight and left but it was only when I walked out onto the street that I realised that to get back to my car, I had to walk the whole length of Old Compton Street in Soho at 2.00 am in the morning, dressed as a woman! Now that was scary but also a wonderful experience as the feelings of vulnerability that I had were exactly what a real woman would probably have felt in the same situation. This was the first time that I understood what it could feel like to be a woman and it was a major experience in my life. If only there was not such a taboo about cross-dressing it would do a lot of men good to experience this and help us to understand each other better. (That's it for the soapbox trip) .

Do you feel that releasing your gender gift Has released creativity, that may otherwise have remained repressed?

No, not really.

Have you ever performed and if so how did you get into performing and what have you done? What outstanding TG experiences stand out in your mind?

No performing and apart from the amazing experience mentioned above, there was one summers night in Soho after the Way Out Club closed that a (real) girl took me to an all night coffee bar. I was dressed of course and we walked through the streets of Soho, which were still busy and the only comments I received from people were ones of encouragement. One very nice girl at the coffee bar came up to me and congratulated me on having the confidence to be there, dressed, that was rather special to me and I will never forget it.

What one piece of advice would you give to someone that has just found they are not the only tranny in the world?


Try and pluck up the courage to go to a dressing service in London and then visit the Way Out Club, (escorted if you prefer). It's what did it for me and I am very grateful to them for that. It will open up a whole new wonderful world for you and show you how much fun can be had as a TV which 'straight' people miss out on. I guess we are the lucky ones as we can have the best of both worlds. 

mandymurray10@yahoo.co.uk


I go out as Andrea in all the main London shopping areas.  Oxford Street, I know well and is truly easy going and cosmopolitan.  Although I’m finding that areas like Brick Lane, with its proliference of leather and inexpensive designer shops increasingly alluring.  If I have something particular in mind – where I need to try it on to see if it fits – I often go the store the day before and say “I’m coming here tomorrow dressed as a girl – do you have any problem with that”.  I always show them a photo of me as Andrea – and almost without exception they are genuinely interested and usually there’s no problem.  After all my money is the same as everybody else’s.  My favourite shops are Department stores for underwear and tights, but for skirts, tops and shoes – most fashion chain stores I have used including Paragon and River Island.  I sometimes use the new Argos Additions range, but find that things never fit quite as I hoped.  Shoes from eBay are also a favourite.  Another good source is some of the London Markets – places like Camden Lock and Stables Market are familiar with “girls” like us!
Recently, I have attended a number of Fashion Shows and have been fortunate enough to arrange for designers to send me clothes to feature in my Photoshoots.

What leads you to choose the styles you wear?

Often I see a fashion photo, or a girl wearing something in the street, and think – that would suit me – or worse still – that it would look better on me than her!  But overall I have two main weaknesses, very high heels and very short skirts.  I therefore tend to tone down the rest of my looks so that this combination does not look out of place in the environment I propose to be in - shopping, clubbing, dining etc.

Do you have one look, or many images?

I think it has to be the one theme of short skirt and high heels, but there are many ways I achieve this, from a smart Business Suit to a sexy leather mini dress.  I’m happy to experiment and push this theme – I’ve even tried wearing a skirt that’s the same length as my heels (no platforms!) are high – 7”!

About 18 months ago I changed my look for blond to red head – as I did not want my photographic opportunities to stagnate.  This change – prompted by my photographer (Don Allen) – I have to say has been for the better.

Is make-up and hair important to you and if so how do you achieve your look?

It’s crucial.  I like to have as natural looking make-up as possible, which fits in with the environment I’m going to and the clothes I’m wearing.  As I said before – I love to wear high heels/short skirts – and if I use a natural not “over the top” make up I can still “blend in” with where I’m going and not look out of place.  Quality foundation and setting powder is the key; I finish off using Clinique foundation and powder.  My wig is by far my best investment – and it never ceases to amaze me of the transformation that occurs when I put it on.  Here again I try to keep it as natural as possible, simple things like a coloured hair grip and subtle jewellery help complete my overall natural look.

As I like to go out and about daytime as much as possible – attention to detail – such as nails, handbag etc help completed an overall look of confidence.

To what degree do you practice hair removal, and other body feminisation?

For me shaving is paramount to achieving a feminine look, especially for my legs as I wear such short skirts sometimes even tights are not always possible and sun kissed bare legs are the only answer.  I’ve done this gradually, and I have found if you then do it regularly it does not draw attention to those near and dear to you.  If I’m going to go out clubbing where I also need my arms fully shaven (because of what I will be wearing), I also find that within a week or so there is sufficient regrowth not to make it too noticeable.  I’m also use a tanning spray on my legs whenever possible – I did try regularly a 6-minute all over tan (sun lamps) but with the possible dangers of skin conditions – I had stopped this.  I will try however one of these all over tanning sprays booths.  I don’t have any hang ups in going into a Salon for this.

I don’t take any form of hormones or other enhancement potions, but I do exercise specifically that keeps my waistline manageable.

Who knows you dress?

Nobody in my daily life knows, and conversely the vast majority of the people I have met or know me when I’m Andrea have not met me as my male self. 

How often do you dress and if you go out where to?

I try to dress about once a month, but sometimes I can go two or three months without, and sometimes it can be three times in three weeks.  I find that if I have left it for a while, besides the withdrawal feeling, I also need to bridge the confidence barrier again.  This is because I always go out when I’m Andrea.  I want to be seen as a sexy girl out and about and for me its no use behind closed doors.

Besides shopping, I go out to clubs and restaurants and also to do photo shoots anywhere around London.  I’m lucky to be comfortable in almost any venue, but I find the gay clubs the easiest going (many I have found from the TG AtoZ directory).  I like to be admired – OK – I know it’s often my legs that cause people to notice me – but I’m comfortable with that.  

So what is a man and what is a woman?

It’s the typical stereotype images that come to mind – I just like to be able to step out of my male life and enjoy the ability to step over this divide.  I don’t try to analyse the divide.  Girls wear trousers – why can’t I wear skirts!

What’s your definition of feminine?

Stepping out with the self belief that your appearance, manner, and deportment is that of what you expect of the elegant and sensual woman you would like to be seen by others as.  It’s about perception, your perception of what a women should be.

Where do you feel you fit on the transgender spectrum CD TV TS?

I’m definitely a CD – a Crossdresser.  I like to think I can step into my “Girl” world and back out again as I please.  I suppose for me – my motive is sexual. The only way I can describe going out as Andrea is like having continuous sex for a day.  I love to see real girls in high heels and short skirts – so when I realised that I could actually also be that girl and turn heads for the same reason – it’s a tremendous sexual thrill.  I get it every time I venture out.  That’s also the reason I’m comfortable to go out and about.

Are you happy to be called a Tranny?

The term Tranny to me covers every aspect of those in our transgender community and I’m completely at ease with it.  The “Trans” form is apt as it gives the impression transposition/transcending from Boy to Girl.  I’m a simple crossdresser, but nonetheless loved to be thought of, or called a “girl” or “TGirl” when I’m out and about as Andrea.

To what degree do you feel gender dysphoric?

I dress as Andrea for the sheer and sexual thrill, of being that glamorous long legged girl of my dreams – my time as Andrea is always so intensive – therefore, for me, there is no need for the desire to be her in a closet form at any other time.  I have a very simple philosophy – I imagine my life as a the juncture of a right angled corner – its like standing at the corner of two streets and only I at that corner can see down both streets at once.  As my male self I’m on one street and all that can be seen of my male life is along that street.  When I go out as Andrea – I move around the corner into a totally different street – totally different life and not connected with my male life at all.

To what degree would you consider permanent hair removal, hormones, and surgery?

I don’t think I ever had.  I’ve been fortunate enough to have a fairly good figure and I have never been really hairy.  I shave my beard area very, very carefully before applying make up and that usually lasts for as long as I intend to be out as Andrea.

What individual has inspired you most in relation to your TG inclinations?
I don’t think there has been any one individual – although once I had discovered the yearly Tranny Guide – I found that a great source of inspiration, and the confirmation that I was not alone in my desire to Crossdress.

Do you feel that you have any choice in your TG thoughts and actions?

Yes – most certainly – my desire is quite simple (in my mind anyway) – I dress for my own satisfaction, and pleasure – it’s quite a selfish thing for me alone!

Have you ever suffered harassment or abuse?

Yes – but nothing that I could not reasonably expect or cope with – lets face it – in my “uniform” even on a real girl, it is always going to draw the attention of most “red blooded” males – but initially all they look at are my legs – and if I am “read” I’m usually teetering 20 yards away before there is the possibility of any comment.  There is a very effective way to deal with any situation – and that is not to react in anyway whatsoever – they must be referring to someone else, not you.  I would however offer a word of caution – unexpected things can happen – just be aware of where you are, and what’s around you – a shop or black cab can be a very simple means of exiting any problems. 

Have you tried to stop?

No!

Are your sexual preferences changed by your TG experiences (even temporarily)?

If you had asked me that question is my first year or so as Andrea – I would have said an emphatic No.  But – it’s true to say, I do like to be admired by a real man.  So I have to now say that whilst I’m out and about as Andrea – I would not be averse to being chatted up by, and flirt with - a young handsome guy.  And yes whilst I remain entirely in girl mode – I have just the once gone further than allowing an admiring hand on my thigh!
So if the offer of having a dinner date with a handsome guy came beckoning – I would be interested! 

Have you suffered illness, depression, relationship break ups because of being TG?

Thankfully no – but wearing 6” heels is quite torturous!

If you could relive your life without the TG experience would you?

No – definitely not – I have made many wonderful friends in the TG community.

Do you feel that releasing your gender gift Has released creativity, that may otherwise have remained repressed?

Not intentionally – It was only that as going out as Andrea as I do, into the everyday outside world – that the opportunity arose to report on my adventures.  Doing photoshoots and reports of events and fashion has evolved from this.  I suppose this is as creative as I get in my life.

What outstanding TG experiences stand out in your mind?

That’s easy – it has to be the first time that I actually stepped outside in day light in public – just the walk 20yds to post a letter.  It was a combination of terror and excitement!  I still get that same feeling every time I go out – it’s a real buzz to the senses.

What one piece of advice would you give to someone that has just found they are not the only tranny in the world?


You’re never too old to step out there into society and go for it.  There are just so many “girls” who ask me how I do it – they would just love to dress and venture out.  All you need is a purpose – a reason for going out (even if its just 100m down the street to post a letter!) and the confidence will just flow. 

Andrea xx