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Here
is my Personal Profile as published in
The Tranny Guide
What
is your name and what is your background?
My name is Vicky Lee. I have a background in manufacturing engineering
and DJing. My life partner and I have been together since 1973. We have
always chosen not to have children we have discussed this together often
and have taken counselling with 'Relate' on this subject among other things.
One of the reasons has been that I am a possible confusion to children.
I now have 3 close and 3 estranged nieces and nephews 3 who don't know
me and 3 who love me dearly. I have tried to follow a masculine path but
during this time descended into workaholic depression. I was a useless
partner during this period of my life. Now is the happiest time of my
life and my partners too. It has not been easy to get to this point in
my life.
Are
you happy to be called a tranny and what does this name mean to you?
I am a tranny - Tranny short for transgendered, which I believe embraces
transvestites and transsexuals. I also call myself an inbetweeny I believe
that if we take ownership of our labels then no one can hurt us by using
them against us.

How
old are you and how young can you remember thinking about or actually
cross-dressing?
I am 50 in 2004. From my youngest memories I can never remember NOT dressing
whenever I got the opportunity. I first found the London tranny scene,
(other than a few closeted Halloween parties), on a Friday afternoon at
Transformation in Euston followed by a weekend at The Philbeach Hotel
having never talked to a tranny or a gay person ever before.
Where
do you buy clothes?
I buy clothes wherever I see them. I like to design and make my own clothes.
I have just lost a lot of weight and now enjoy the styles that I want
to wear.

What
leads you to choose the styles you wear?
I am influenced by everything around me magazines, films, music videos,
women on the street. The hardest thing is finding the look in the shops.
Like many I am heavily influenced by fashion (its so hard to feel fashionable
in skirts over the last few years). I loved the late 80's opaque tights
short skirts and comfy boots look but could never go out in that look
now.
Do
you have one look or many images?
I do have a look. My partner will say of something in a shop or magazine
"that's very Vicky Lee". I have tried things that really don't work for
me that's for sure. I have played with pvc and leather in my character
costumes but can say for sure that I don't have a fetish for any style
or material.

Is
make-up and hair important to you and if so how do you achieve your look?
Madam Jo Jo once told me make sure your face and hair are the best they
can be - most people don't look down if they like what they see. My own
hair is long I wear a hair-piece bonded to my scalp, all of the time,
to fill the gaps. My make up can take an hour but I have done my full
stage make-up in 10 minutes. I have been very lucky to be able to watch
the best and learn from them.
To
what degree do you practice hair removal, and other body feminisation?
I shave all my hair from my body every few days (except my back and upper
arms, which are waxed monthly). I pluck my eyebrows every day. My ears
are pierced. I moisturise and face pack whenever I allow myself time.
I have my hair coloured and highlighted. My nails are always groomed and
my toes are always painted (this is very important to me).
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Who
knows that you dress?
Everyone I know - knows that I dress fully female. Local neighbours and
shop owners accept that I am not male nor female but something inbetween.
Many say madam even when I have made no effort - other times sir it does
not bother me either way. My best male friend was the first to recognise
what I was . He approached me and said "please tell me you are a transvestite
because my second option is that you have taken up night fishing". He
has always been most supportive and accepting. His partner has helped
as my personal assistant for a number of years and has just had a baby.
My partner's family have always treated me as the 4th sister. I am a tomboy
as much as they are. My sister and mother have disowned me.
How
often do you dress and if you go out where to?
I am mostly in cargo pants and tee shirts. But then so are all the girls
I know. I often wear something more girly when I am out for a meal with
friends, meetings or a party. Saturday at The WayOut Club always fulfils
girly dreams and is still after years a thrill.
What
is your definition of feminine?
feminine is the ability to embrace a game of paint ball and then to flirt
in a cocktail frock and EVERYTHING inbetween. Masculine is to deny any
experience, emotion, choice because it might be considered by somebody
else as "girly".
To
what degree do you feel gender dysphoric (i.e. that your brain is feminine)?
I have allowed my brain it's full range of abilities and choices I don't
think that I am gender dysphoric but others think I am feminine.
To
what degree would you consider permanent hair removal, hormones, surgery?
I have endured laser hair removal that proved to me that I am driven to
make changes. I have breast envy and would like breast enhancement but
only if my partner was happy with this. I have no desire for any other
changes. However I know that if I had understood myself and had had the
option I would have chosen castration at a young age.
Why
did you choose your transgender name?
When I was first asked for my transgender name (to sign into a hotel)
I was scared of being identified and felt I could not use my given name
(which IS a genderless name). I panicked for a moment and then out popped
Vicky Lee. This name has been good for me and I have many strange stories
relating to it. (I tell these stories in a whole section on choosing names
on page 66 in TG 7th edition). However I wish now, that I had used my
(genderless) name as it would cause less confusion especially on the phone.
Also family and old friends knew me first by my given name and it very
hard for anyone to use a different name once programmed into the neural
software.

What
individual has inspired you most in relation to your TG inclinations?
I set the question but I can't answer it. I am a product of so many influences
I can't choose an individual. I am a tomboy who also enjoys being feminine.
I have been inspired by the images and actions of women as diverse as
the fluffy stars of the silver screen that I would watch as a kid on a
rainy afternoon to practical women who are not restricted by gender barriers
tackling all manner of activity - this I admired so immensely, believing
then (and now) that most men do not allow themselves diverse freedom.
Ok if pushed Katherine Hepburn, and Lara Croft (I wish) !!
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Do
you feel you have any choice in your TG thoughts and actions?
Very definitely NOT. All of my life, when I least expect it I find myself
seeing a female image or activity that triggers a deep need to share the
look or the experience.

Have
you tried to stop?
In my teens I grew a moustache to try to stop myself dressing up. In my
late twenty's I submerged myself in long hours of work allowing no time
for cross dressing (or anything else including a relationship). On numerous
occasions I threw away clothes only to start buying bits over again. My
weight has fluctuated between 11stone and 16 stone when I am small my
cross-dressing increases and at times I believe I have used my weight
to try to stop my inclination. Instead it just make me cross with myself.
Are your sexual preferences changed by your TG experiences?
I think, like many others, when I was first offered admiration, a drink,
a compliment, a hand on the bum (and maybe more) !! by someone who is
in fact was the same gender I questioned my own sexuality. I had never
experienced this before and as male rarely received the same from females.
I don't think my sexuality was changed it was awakened. I believe that
if I had been purely hetrosexual I would have reacted differently to these
opportunities and by accepting them and enjoying them I accept my bisexuality
- though I have had a monogamous relationship with my female partner for
over 30 years.

Have
you suffered illness, depression, relationship break ups because of being
TG?
I have had many days when I have buried myself under the bed sheets in
an awful mood often preceding a night when I was expected to present myself
next to a partner who would use every feminine trick to build her confidence
and make her look great - while I felt lost, not knowing how to present
myself and feeling invisible. I would try to overcome these feelings by
using my personality to overshadow my inner feelings which resulted in
a roller coaster of extreme emotions. While exploring the newly discovered
TG world I felt guilt at the hours not spent with my partner who thought
I was making up a fantasy world with my stories. After revealing my TG
activities to my family my relationship with them spiralled into a disastrous
break up. I am accused of being the cause of my father's death and I have
been asked to have nothing more to do with my mother, sister and her children
since the year 2000. My relationship with my partner has suffered ups
and down which can be attributed mostly to my TG feelings in the background,
later in the foreground. My partners struggled with the need to not have
secrets with friends and family. At a later stage she further needed help
to explore her own relationship with what she now fully believed to be
a part female person with no turning back. Through all of this, two series
of counselling with 'Relate' has been valuable and has helped us focus
on our options and make decisions. Furthermore the support of many friends
and family has brought both of us through to a stable and very happy period
in our lives.
If
you could relive your life without the TG experience would you choose
to?
I would never 'choose' to be estranged from my family, yet I have no other
regrets at the life I have had. Being TG has not been easy but it has
greatly enriched my life. I often think that if I had my life over again
knowing what I know now I would have "come out" much younger. But in that
case so many other wonderful things and wonderful people probably would
not have been part of my life. Understanding my sexuality at a younger
age may have made me vulnerable to HIV and AIDS because it was my age
group that was caught out with no knowledge of the disease and were wiped
out before drugs were formulated to hold the immune deficiency in check
and the message of using condoms at all times was learnt.
How
did you get into performing and what have you done?
With a background of shy performance playing guitar and singing and years
DJing - in 1992 I started working with Steffan. When I first took to the
stage to perform female mime impersonations. I found to my surprise that
in "drag" I had no fear no "butterflys" After two years with 'Dragmania'
I went live singing firstly in 'The Vampettes' and then with my own show
'Vicky Lee & Company' with which in one year alone I did over 180 very
successful shows. In 1998 on Sky One's 'Little John Live' show, I was
particularly thrilled to be able to sing live backed by a fabulous band.
On a program for UK Living I sung backed by music that I made on my computer.
Pressure of publishing work has not allowed time for making music or performing
on the cabaret circuit for far too long - however I enjoy regularly hosting
and joining in shows at The WayOut Club.
What
outstanding TG experiences stand out in your mind?
I am blessed with so many - from simply feeling elated after early infrequent
Friday to Sunday weekends of freedom to be me - to meeting Princess Diana
at a film premier. I constantly find myself in a situation where I look
around and know that I am amongst extraordinary company that I would never
have come into contact with if I had not opened my mind and stepped out
and then I look at what I am wearing and the feel the confidence they
inspire in me and know I am not looking from outside but from within.
Standing on stage receiving applause for a performance must be one of
my greatest joys followed closely by the joy of seeing many others achieve
the same result through our Star Search at the WayOut Club.
FINALLY
AS ALWAYS What one piece of advice would you give to someone that has
just found they are not the only tranny in the world?
Embrace diversity. Realise there is no such thing as normal. You only
have one go at life so be true to yourself while maintaining respect for
others. Find a balance that is right for you and those that love you.
And enjoy.

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'Personal
'Profiles'
were introduced in the 11th edition of The Tranny Guide book and continued
in
further editions
I guessed that there must be many readers that have their own story
and advice to offer.
I based the questions on the subjects that I have always tried to answer
in my 'WayOut of the Closet'
advice section.
Of
course I would not ask others to answer questions that I would not answer
about myself so ...
Here is my
Personal Profile
The
magic came when I realised that the comparison of answers builds
a wonderful understanding
of individuality and diversity.
I had not imagined the interactive life that these 'profiles' would
breath into the book and much more
Monica
writes in the 12th edition (page 175)...
"In
October we were visited by three friends from England.
Louise Wood, who had her profile in last year's Tranny Guide, contacted
me after having read my profile to
see if we could meet

. And so on a dreadfully cold Friday night in October Louise, her friends
Zara and Jo, with my friends Jun, Natasha and Renate and myself set out
for a night in Amsterdam".
by Monica
You will find MORE of these profiles, contributed from all around the
world, throughout this edition. Of course I would not ask anyone to answer
questions that I would not answer myself - so here are my answers to the
questions and for the 12th edition I have added a number of new questions.
Click here to find out more about the Tranny
Guide book
"Read Profiles of over 60 trannies in the 11th & 12th Editions"
You are invited, whether past or future profile contributors to answer
these questions too. Our answers are building a strong base for future
understanding and a record of our times for prosperity.




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